20-20

Twenty20 was introduced to create a fast-paced game for Cricket. But in general, this year was ironically slow-moving. Lots of people had many dreams and goals, but Covid pandemic ruined many things for many of them. This year wasn't bad for me, but I have had better I would say. I started a new beginning in my personal life, still struggling for professional life to become better. I'm still learning to control emotions, fears, shame, guilt and so much. I'm still learning how to achieve some ambitions. I'm still learning how to fulfil some of my dreams. I still have many things on my bucket list. 

This year, I've learned so much from life. I learned that some people will never value you and that's okay. In life, sometimes we do so much for people, sometimes they don't deserve that much from us and still, they don't credit us for it or sometimes they are not even thankful. But all we can do is just learn to move on. Some people will hurt you unintentionally and you'll never be able to forget it, but just you have to forgive them... This has happened to me with the people I thought were my friends, but they were just colleagues, nothing more. I wanted to tell them how I felt in those days, but I never did and now maybe I'll not. Probably I gave them much importance which wasn't required and I'm learning to move on. I learned that you can have many emotions, you feel many things on many days, but not everyone needs to know that. You can tell those things to your loved ones or good friends because those people will not judge you. I've struggled a lot this year regarding inequality at the workplace, which relations to hold on and which to let go of. It was hard for me to accept some loved ones and friends for how they are or how they behaved this year. I've struggled a lot to digest many of the things my family and friends told me. I've sacrificed many things for a few people and a better future but realised later it wasn't worth it. In short, it was just another year with letting go of many things. I was about to lose some of my friends, for some of the things they confessed, some of the things I confessed to them and some I knew from other people, all of these were major things. I just had to forgive and just had to move forward with a heavy heart because those friendships were important. I was just close to going in a nervous breakdown regarding Sushant's death, how I've controlled myself, only I know that because I never told anyone. Some of the things are just known by very few loved ones which I am not going to discuss here. 

Just realised that one decade is also ending. After posting one video of my photos each year, I realised that I've learned a lot and I've evolved as a person. I graduated, got myself a good job, started this blog, read many books and watched many films... Cheers to a better future, happiness, dreams and whatever you desire! Happy 2021!